August 12th, 2007
I do have a private journal. I don’t share everything here… but I recently wrote down my deepest fear and secret, and then thought I should share it with you here: sometimes, I don’t want to be a mother.
Is that horrible?
Sometimes, I feel like I can’t do a good enough job for him. I […]
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July 17th, 2007
It’s hard to be four. It’s hard to be a single mom. It’s hard to be the single mom of a four year old.
Yesterday at around three, I got a message from the King of Everything’s summer camp. There had been an incident, the woman breathed into my answering service. Please call.
Tags: discipline, mother’s guilt, […]
By christina -- 11 comments
June 15th, 2007
Shhh. Parents make mistakes, too. The important part is learning from them. If you want proof that you’re not alone in being imperfect, please head over to Babylune to check out the group writing project about parenting mistakes and the lessons learned. Day one is here…. but there are four groups of entries, so be […]
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June 5th, 2007
It’s been a very hard week–and it’s only Tuesday. I’ve been so very careful since October, taking on more responsibility, more pressure, more more, but slowly. I’m being kind to myself. I’m not overextending. I’ve given myself time to grieve and mourn, time to grow into my job, time to heal, time to branch out […]
By christina -- 5 comments
May 15th, 2007
I had to take a few days off work when the King of Everything got his tonsils and adenoids removed last week. By Friday, I was definitely worried about me.
I couldn’t stop working, even though I’d scheduled the time off.
What’s WRONG with me?
I even thought about calling this help line we have at work–it’s this […]
By christina -- 7 comments
April 5th, 2007
I just looooove it when someone starts a sentence, ‘Well, you know what you should do’ as if everything is simple, clear, easy. As if i haven’t thought of XYZ. Now, I’m not talking about the times when I turn to my friends and family for advice. They know that’s what I’m doing because I […]
By christina -- 3 comments
April 1st, 2007
I brought my son to work with me today. Yes, I’m working on a Sunday, why do you ask?
I brought him in for a variety of reasons. First, I have no idea what my father does. When I was a little girl, I had a hard time saying ‘attorney’. One night, my father brought clients […]
By christina -- 2 comments
February 13th, 2007
I was up and out of bed before the alarm went off this morning, tearing open the blinds even before I could unstick my poor, sleepy eyes. was there snow on the ground? Please…
YES! the alley behind my house was clear. What, you ask, is SoloMother such a scrooge that she reveled in a distinct […]
By christina -- 3 comments
January 7th, 2007
Most of the women I knew when I was pregnant with, or nursing, the King of Everything, have at least two children now. One of the things I am angriest about in this divorce debacle is the fact that I’ll more than likely not have any more children. I’m not getting any younger, and running […]
By christina -- 8 comments
December 14th, 2006
I can’t do right by my son. If I could do right by my son, I’d be a stay at home mom, or work part time, and pick him up after school every day. We’d play Candyland and fingerpaint, bake cookies together and read as many stories as we want to. He’d have his mama […]
By christina -- 4 comments
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